This is life, I suspect. At its most beautiful and fragile, it is all about impermanence. God, I hate that bullshit and yet I know it to be true. Impermanence. I suffer in this knowledge because – well – I am suffering it. I do not wish it to be so. I think of the … Continue reading
Everyone deserves to have cute things, right? Books with no profanity, no nudity, and not sex talk… imagine that!? Monthly Rounds (Habit/Mood Tracker) Monthly Squares (Habit/Mood Tracker) Continue reading
So, I recently posted that I did “a thing” Truth! That THING-1 was a book and its e-book/kindle version. Woot! And THING-2? A book for littles! THE COLLAR (available on Amazon now!) is the full journal/planner with all of the journaling sections in back. You can also purchase copies from the community vendor, Blossom Trading Company … Continue reading
A long time ago… i thought about writing this book. Fast forward through a lot of shit and some pauses (for good reasons and silly ones as well) and I’m done with the project. My intent was to publish it via paperback only, but then I thought… why not a streamlined e-book as well? As … Continue reading
It’s been more than thirty years since you raped me and you just slipped in through the side door of my brain. uninvited.i.could.not.breathe.unexpected.i.dare.not.breathe. Five minutes of self-talk to coax myself out of the mental corner I curled up into… a couple of kleenex… just put a pot of water on for tea… and needed to … Continue reading
I heard someone say something simple… and sexy… and empowering recently. It had to do with his penis. More on that in a bit… This morning, I stumbled across a discussion on Fet related to consent violation… specifically a man confessing to what sure sounded like rape, but then backpedaling into a sad sort of … Continue reading
TRIGGER WARNING: childhood trauma, father, abuse, molestation When I was in an undergrad lit class, we were assigned poems to read and this was one. I had to dig it up online today and found it with keywords “father – dance – such waltzing was not easy” My Papa’s Waltz (Theodore Roethke) The whiskey on … Continue reading
I wrote this over a year ago. A few months later, I’d pull the plug (albeit temporarily) on this blog. I’d disable my wawbat facebook. I spent little time on fet at all between then and now, and when I came back to this blog today… I found this and marveled at the emotions which have … Continue reading
This is how it felt. My ability to navigate the world (the “real” one outside my front door) safely while enjoying and exploring who I really am? That was stifled. The judgment is bad enough. We’ve all been judged. We know what it is to be measured against society’s standards and to be found “wanting” … Continue reading
Nearly two years ago, I posted about a sangha dharma talk. The take-home for me was simply this: I am potential incarnate I’ve thought about it many times in the days since. I’ve shared that sentiment with others, especially the young adults with whom I rub elbows. YOU ARE potential INCARNATE. It crosses my mind … Continue reading
