i resonate to rituals and tokens. When i knew i’d be attempting the mud ninja next year and watching my tribe participate in it this year, i went online and was gobsmacked by the craziness and daunting challenges my friends would face. i was more than a little frightened by what i would face next … Continue reading
Two years ago, i could not walk. All i wanted then was to walk… well, and to not be wracked with pain. There was great pain. There still is pain. This morning, i hopped into gmail and looked at what i was emailing about two years ago. i was called “kame bat” then because Master … Continue reading
Life sure is funny. Not “ha ha” funny… more peculiar like… odd. my life is changing so much in so many ways and most of them are good. Still, i have that odd feeling that comes when you’ve been roller-skating for hours and you slip off the wheels in favor of sneakers. Whoa Discombobulating, eh? … Continue reading
i am in a fairly odd mood. i am freakishly busy with life and work and attempting to get the spawn settled after our plans went south (with the kia’s car-fail). Still, i’m not depressed or frantic. i almost feel as if i should be more worried about things. So much of it is absolutely … Continue reading
i put together the above image and the thought tonight after a day that was a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. The day wore a weariness born of sleep deprivation (just a smidgen) and hard choices. i visited my therapist, made some decisions, and then off to work i went. The day was full, but … Continue reading
At heart, i am a researcher. We like to triangulate. We ferret out details, we collect data, and we like to confirm findings… oh… confirm, confirm, challenge again, confirm. It’s the scientific process. It exists for a reason; it allows humans to suspend affective responses and to see reality… to understand the world empirically. It … Continue reading
i passed a very nice Christmas. It was the first Christmas in recent memory that had no tether to my father (he called but i didn’t pick up or check voicemail). i replied to a text from my brother. i didn’t call my aunt. i made a purposeful decision to speak to… to touch… the … Continue reading
i’ve been largely absent from this blog – not because i have nothing to say but because i’ve no desire to say it all here. It is enough, right now, for me to experience things and reflect on them. Still, i miss the process of putting my thoughts down on paper screen, seeing them in … Continue reading
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